I miss you you don't know how much* the rest is incohorent, he keeps saying sorry, over and over.
I guess I understand why, now. the apologies, the childlike way he'd turn and burrow into my shoulder--something he'd hardly done before
maybe I didn't understand the reasoning behind the things he would have liked, but the pain was always so palpable a heavy ache, a lonesome ache--
I hope all the blackest things are the farthest from you, and that you recede from the places that only bring temporary comfort, i hope that you heal, that all the ways you have frozen over will thaw, not a bitter thing to be found,
i hope that the bees find you sweet, Matt because you are and I did, you are not a body of the things people have said
breathe, in and out
in and out. with me, in and out.
(c) Brooke Otto 2017
started this back in june. finished today. if you still read, at all. I want the best for you.