I sit here
Contemplating how to conquer my fear
Can I alter the wheel? Or just
Fall down and kneel? I must
Have something to live for, some
Spark to ignite, some
Purpose to endure, these
Pains in the night, still...

I sit here
Searching for a way out of the pattern
It doesn't matter to the scheme, but
It keeps me from sleeping
Scattered thoughts, in a blink
I'm lost again, for naught, cause
Memories are so decieving...

I sit here
Thinking so what if Im selfish?
Are you saying you're not? Ha!
The prospect is childish, this
"Who said what again", nonsense,
Is boring the **** outta me...so

I sit here
Waiting for the reckoning.
Patiently, drifing through this
Time and space and happening,
Chasing pleasures, and vices, no
Remorse when the dice roll
Snakes eyes see through cold stone,
I can tell you arent alive so...

I sit here...