I sat on my bed staring at the floor Face blank, mind racing, searching Till I got this urge, This shiver down my spine this clawing at my insides these whispers in my head So I went to my window Tore off the screen Sticking my head out in the summer breeze Stared at the trees and the birds and the leaves And tried to imagine what flying would be like What crashing would feel like What my head would look like After I jump face first out my window Into the rock garden down below. I sat there, on my window sill One foot dangling over the edge, the other touching my carpeted floor Trying to decide whether or not tomorrow was worth living for.