the night sky

tonight i looked up into the night sky...and i saw how lucky i am to be alive.

how is it we can see so much in the dark? i saw myself looking back at me.

too far for my own mind to follow.

i thought of spinning around in circles...of history repeating itself.

i thought of seeds sprouting and people dying.

i thought of my body and it's weakness. i saw my strength and resilience.

i thought of living long after i leave this place.

returning to dust and earth. sinking into the deep and floating off into the nothingness.

i thought of the wondrous nothingness. so enormous with purpose.

too far for my own light to follow.

to venture as far as to fade into future and pass into past.

i saw myself looking back at me.

i saw my eyes weathered with age and wisdom.

i saw my heart playful as ignorance. foolish with curiosity.

i knew that from this moment i would not fear death.

for i saw in the dark that i shall never perish.

i saw my return to the night. my return to the dust.

the beautiful beginning end. i saw it begin so long ago.

i knew all along that i could not fear life.

i saw in the dark that i shall always shine brightly.

i saw the gorgeous truth of the extraordinary coincidences.

i thought of my mother and her strength and care.

i thought of my father's photograph... and the life that he lived in my pocket.

i saw him looking down upon me. shining brightly as i would.

i saw myself turning in circles.

i thought of turning...turning...turning into him.

this is such a beautiful place. such a lovely breath of air.

so enormous with purpose.

each one will venture as far as to fade into future and pass into past.

i thought of the last inhale.

i knew at that moment that time has been kind to me.

i thought of holding my breath.

i dreamt of keeping the last thing this world would give me.

i saw myself shimmer like light on the water. i saw myself leaving and coming back.

i knew that in the briefest of moments i would last for eternity.

i saw myself in everyone else. i saw us all fighting for air.

i thought of us spinning around in circles...of history repeating itself.

tonight i looked up into the night sky...and i saw how lucky we are to be alive.

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