Afraid.....
Afraid to let my guard down again.
Can't let anyone see my insecurities, for they get used against me..
Afraid to be another chapter in someones book, afraid to just be another story to tell the guys, another story to create some laughs.... another joke.
Scared to be that chapter where they get taken as a fool, betrayed, and tore down after many years of serious work.
Another chapter in another book, another story to add to the collection, another chapter in my own story.
Flipping through the pages reading what has already been written, hoping history doesn't repeat itself. Hoping that this life isn't another rerun, hoping that this life isn't another rewrite just with some polishing of new onsets. I don't wanna be another chapter in someones book, I wanna be the best chapter in my own book. Don't wanna be a sad failure chapter in his book... I wanna be my own chapters in my own book. I'll rewrite it all just to avoid being that chapter....Another chapter.