Like when my best friend signed a 1049 (volunteering on a form) for Vietnam rather than volunteering out loud like he was giving in to the paper tigers lifers when mother and father both died, when my wife scolded me when we were going together for having kinda like a girlfriend at a summer job on Cape Cod when James Brown died when a black car here at the Danville VA more or less so seemed to me to be accusing me of racism at the beauty of patriotism I've noticed periodically in my life.