i am dreaming of the apocalypse Satan coming down in all blue declaring the color of suicide today is yellow that the color of pain today is red and that the color of god today is blue.
i am dreaming of the supermarket where god and satan talk, loudmouthed and offensive, consistently telling the other to *******.
i am dreaming of massacre and all of her unholy penumbras / i have colored a sun named after her and left it hanging from a noose in the color hell of this bedroom. marking off her endless questionnaire:
Are you suicidal? yes Are you insane? Yes Are you the discoloration of the world of tomorrow? The way the future looks drab from this point in time and seems even weaker from that present that belies you with the temptress of future? ...maybe?
i am not dreaming. i am cold and alone in a room somewhere between purgatory and massacre where both are a disaster and the real name is probably something to do with psychiatry and institutes. i am greeted by satan in blue, god sulking half silent behind him, mumbling something in streams of cadmium red. he tells me; youβll be staying with us. he tells me; i wish you luck and hope you get better.
i am not dreaming. the floor is rising in rebellion. a white flag raised from my side of the battle both sides truce and lie themselves down in the unwanted nowhere of persistent ailment in a bed with paper sheets.
and the question is; am I insane? am i suicidal? am I the discoloration of the world of tomorrow? yes. yes. maybe. the question doubled in on itself. so are you here for suicide? she asks. yes. yes. maybe. my disaster is rolling down my throat like molasses and i want to die. satanβs color was blue today, right? i look down. i am in blue. are you here for satanism? yes yes maybe are you here for *******? yes yes maybe are you here for real? no.
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