I used to want to leave
My life
behind
So far behind
I never lived again.

But now I see.

What death does to me.

I never want to leave
My life
behind
Anywhere near behind
Never living again.

Because how could
this breaking family
undergo another crack
in the frame.

I am not alone.
I have people I can turn to,
If I need.

Won't you remind me?

It's nineteen days
since you last breathed
and eighteen days
since I was told
someone is here for me.