What is it like to be hurt by your own father? For him to emotionally, verbally and physically abuse you. What is it like to watch your father beat your mother and almost **** her? What is it like? What is it like for the man that's suppose to love you and protect you the most do the very opposite? What if he told you that he loved you all your life and when you got older you realized that wasn't true because your older now & know that real love doesn't hurt. All these questions, I have the answer to because I know what it's like. But my only question I can not answer is what is it like, to not have a father or know him?