Just now it has come to me again: the sudden knowledge of everything that remains to be done though I worked my *** off this week, doing things, doing things. What is my style? is a question I have never asked until now, in the waiting room at my dentistβs, when this article in O Magazine encouraged me so cunningly to do so. Maybe it is not my job to surprise you, not anymore, says the spirit. O.K., I say. O.K. But still, I want one more crisp image, just one, though I know I donβt deserve it, I want it to appear the way money once or twice in my life has appeared in my line of vision on the street: some bill, nearly alive, green god, its skin giving off evergreen light, unaccounted for and then immediately mine, no questions asked.