Failure is fundamental
In welcoming success
There is no joy in winning when
Each time you win
The pleasure’s less

Flirting, failure left me wanting
Wanting more of idleness
And acceptance of my nothingness

I looked around and saw the world
And told myself the world was right
And told myself that happiness
Was knowing to give up the fight

And now I’ve lost, I couldn’t say
The thought of failure keeps me warm
I want to spin and hit the world
A hurricane amid the storm

I don’t want to sleep forever
Amid the pain,
and pleasure,
of past endeavour
To take my life and keep me sane
I write my life, to live again

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I know that I will lose the fight
Death decay and loneliness
Are self imposed notions
Points of view without foundations
Uniting all, but stealing light

Everything is lost,
And everyone dies
By the hand of Eternity
That holds your soul
And shuts your eyes

But what now, of the miracle I am?
That survives the odds against eternity
Uniting the very essence of infinity
To feel, and stand
As from the Earth, comes Man

The purpose I will never find
But life, I know, has set me free
And to the meaning I am blind
But I should take what I can see

I will lose
Of that I’m sure
But on the way I know I’ll fight
To feel the pain the love and joy
To see the beauty
Bathed in light

And as I lose,
I know I’ll win
Because that it is to fight the cold
Is that it is, to let you in