i can't feel anything anymore.
everything just seems numb,
dull.
what am i living for?
why was i born?

i feel like a ship's hull;
drowned.
i cant lull myself to sleep anymore.
it seems like the thoughts have their own sound.

then, when i laughed,
the genuinity of the joy felt nice,
it made my cheeks feel warm,
now, it just feels like ice.

now, it hurts to laugh.
i feel monotonous, like a droid.
im wheezing away, trying to stay happy,
but now, all i feel is a void.