I see people float on like leaves. Gliding, soaring, humming about, not a care in the world. Glorious reds and yellows, triumphant, even in the knowledge that they will all end. And so I drift along as well, but not with a whisking of the wind like others. I slowly make my way in the murk of a puddle, rolling through mud and the accumulated pollutants of what ifs and slow eating depression. What I would give to fly. What I would give not to feel.