it isn't fair
i loved too fiercely
you loved too openly
and I'm the one who was cast out
left alone to burn
my heart a supernova
too many galaxies away
for anyone to see
for anyone to care about
you remain content
protected
lovable
it wasn't your fault

somehow i feel like it was mine
i dont know who I'm talking to
i blame all of you
i blame you for being selfish
i blame you for being weak
i blame you for being the victim
i blame myself for caring about any of you

i make myself the victim every time
but i cared
i shut them out
it was their fault
but you made it mine
in some twisted part of your psyche
i was to blame
his infidelity became my uncaring
my sensitivity
my loneliness
my craving for anyone to love
became his controlling nature
maple roots wrapping around
the stones tied to our feet

we’re both sinking
we’re both alone
somehow more watched than ever
and i don't know what happens inside your
mind
and i don’t
mind
not knowing
it leaves me room to imagine
you feeling as alone as i do
you feeling more broken than i ever can

i dont know if you deserve it

i hope i don't