when im alone and i have nothing to direct my attention to i wish i had my fill of the things that are known to **** you.
its been a little while that ive been clean of it
but i need it.
i get itchy and twitchy and thirsty without it my throat feels like its on fire and the only thing that could cool my case was another fill.
without it i’d have these extrodinary headaches, real irritable and i’d feel like i saw the room slowly crumbling down and the floor would spin from beneath me which it never did.
once i had another fill it was as if it made my stomach full again it felt like a three course meal in one small compact dose. so so tasty yet terrible. its tearing my family apart and i know this but when my mind starts thinking about moments like those. where i felt really infinite. i start to crave for another fill. another fill just one more wont hurt. at least for today..