Its a hard thing to explain. Nobody can understand human emotions, not even the human the emotions consumes. But I'll try to put it in words that maybe you'll understand once and for all.

Every little touch that came from you whether innocent or sinful sent a shiver or a jolt running down my spine into the depths of my stomach where the butterflies house themselves. Igniting every single nerve on the way.

Your giant, soft gentle hands gently coax my hair out of the way as you bring my face closer and closer to yours, inches away until I feel your warm breath on my neck. Until I hear the air caught in your throat so close I feel like its me who can't catch their breath.

The thrill running through my veins as if it were the blood I need to live. Setting my soul, lust and love on fire which can only be extinguished by your proximity. You made everything fall into place and my vision became clearer and you put my life into perspective.

You were my friend and I loved you. I wanted you, I missed you,I blamed myself, I thought about you, I craved that closeness again.

Only to find you turned your back on me one final time with no chance for your own redemption. I threw away what I had for what I wanted only to find out what I craved, had abandoned me.