i often feel so insecure with my own self
with my own body
the shape of my body (but i don't have any shape)
the smell of my breath
the smell of my body
the way i dress up
are my pants, shirt, scarf and shoes suit well
the way i walk
does it attract the attention from the guy
does it cover my aurat well
do i dress up like a clown

(but i know that the insecurity won't be good for me, i won't feel safe to go out anymore, i won't have any confident to be in the crown anymore)