As every insecurity creeps into my chest and send shivers through my whole body, i worry about who i have yet to become and what is yet to change. The cons of a philosopher arent obvious from looking outside, but when you are one, you find depressing times to be harsher than normal. Cause that's when you explore the darker side of philosophy and lose value of life. You think of how pointless our lives are and how in 100 years, the things you have done wont mean anything. You notice that your words can only hold value for so long and when the time comes, you become another careless person of the past or people will question if you ever did exist like jesus or muhammad. You question whether love truly exist or if the things we value are the things we should be valuing. What's wrong with people? How is it that we can share a planet when some of the people view the world as flat and never consider all the dimensions that could possibly exist. What is this ****?