I hear myself cry in mental pain.
The struggle with life and death only gains.
And inside my flooding head it still rains.
Release me from this rusting clasping chains.
There must be some kind of promising change.
I'm so numb and stupid I don't know my name.
My head is changing, it never stays the same.
Here I am in control of the wrecking train.
Who's to blame, who's to blame?
I swallowed it, I swallowed it all today.
It was the toughest to ever come my way.
feeling memories sadly fade away.
It was so hard living day by day.
I lived forever and watched all decay.
And it comes the last days of May.
Speechless with just one last thing to say.
Maybe your world wasn't made for me to hide.
Once again I have committed myself to suicide.