listen, it'll be okay. it will be ok. it will be okay. so walk down to the lake but don't think about walking in and not walking out. think instead about mermaids. think about fishes that grant wishes. maybe don't think about anything but the trees. i know you're tired i know you hurt. but don't pick up a blade, or some pills. go to sleep. someday you'll wake up feeling better. until then the trees will whisper soothing breeze across your face as you sit by the lake.