A cheetah speckled woman With long curly red hair Invited me to a bean shaped cushion In her studio apartment. her keys jingled in the closing door Sealing us, a hot red room.
"Love is creepy" She says, sinking into Her candy apple bean shaped cushion
I am a watcher. When We met, She was in her natual habitat. A coat tail of men, I admired how oblivious they were to being faceless goons. watched her direct them like an ***** desperate orchestra. My back against a wall, Smoking a cigarette.
Now, I'm in this studio apartment Again, I am a ******. She tells me stories Of bad tinder dates as I survey the strung up Christmas lights Posters of Marilyn monroe. Teenage quotes of aspiration. "Be unapologeticly you"
She smiles at my ignorance to her body. I am not ignorant by any means Only respectful I notice her smirk at me swing around Leaning into shelves of pottery and art supplies. flying around with a clipped wing.
"Will I be a poem?" She asks. "You're right. Love is creepy."
I pull wine out of my bag and place it on the counter, put Chicken and vegetables in the fridge. She turns on Netflix and asks "whaddaya wanna watch?" "bird documentaries" i say, an effort to incite her own decision. domestically, A bird documentary starts to play. I gloss over a smirk at my failure We share wine meditating to the sounds of Bad Voiceovers and chirping
We are the card dealers of moments hourglass columns sand falling where art should be carved. fractures of timelessness stacked like Jenga blocks each sip of wine a ritualistic dymensia blackjack tables with no dealer just a bartender
We watch an owl puke up mouse bones "Owls are Creepy." We agree. witness to me, is indulgence silk strings pull my heart towards exhibitionists When she changes to A pink robe Textured to compliment my heart strings the singsong of birds chirping. provides an exotic baseline for her sway.
I stare at her body. "My love is creepy" I say pressing thumbs to divets in her hips I am slave on her shadows My hands trace contours follow my worship eyes "I like the attention" she says
In the morning drafty eyes part
whisper From swirling pink elephant dazes smiling at me. the soft moans of her night the reason I started dealing cards. an addiction to that moment. the reason I turn the hourglass. the wide green foggy eyes Watching me stare back. stretching like a cat who plays with the bird brings it to it's master as a gift limp and submissive, Perhaps she is the bird. Sunken to the curves of the bed. a limp beautiful body the most honest and intentionless fracture love is creepy. I am a watcher ask only that you exist. Existing is equally as creepy. we have fingers thoughts consequences. So why not stare at a part you want to keep? Why not write it down for others to fly? so many beautiful things are never seen Oppurtunity wasted for fear of being creepy Fear of love. fear of cats Fear of birds when I stare I capture When I write, you stare love is creepy. we are creepy. birds are creepy be my creepy love bird. peace dove fly with me, if for a moment. and stare down at everything while we can see it I want to see everything with you For now I see you in everything. Photoshop you into my dreams Imaginary Love is for the birds anyway.