The mornings
The nights
And the middle of the day
Are the hardest
I still feel so sad
Disappointment is the largest
And most pointed word
That constantly comes to mind
That I, you, we
Spent all that time
To have it accumulate to nothing.

I remember when I pointed out
In between sips of champagne
That we had been together for almost a year
I'll never forget the way that you scoffed
Behaved as if it was a shock
And I dropped my head
A thousand and one more times
Because I thought I had it
I wanted to find it
And I look out the window on my own again

I don't know what anything is going to be
Chicago is such a sea
And I think if I had stayed in Philadelphia
Or cast my net out shorter
I bet I would have found something
I bet I too, could be settling down
Choosing and being chosen
And though sometimes I feel so exhausted by it all
I know this is what I gotta do.

I wonder what you do today
We would have been together
In the rain
Even just three weeks ago
I think of your pink face
Unable to shed my skin just yet
My mothers voice is gone
So hoarse
Remember my Mickey Mouse pretzel
I tried so hard
I tried so hard
I tried so hard
And still you pushed me
To write goodbye in lipstick.