almost is never enough
maybe i'm too blame
for the read messages
missed calls
ignorance
for the short glances
for all the times i said i would, but didn't
for every word i said, yet couldn't mean
walking by you though looking past your presence

almost is never enough
to all the times i caught you staring
i never wanted you to turn away
all the times you wanted me to be yours
"yes" i would've said
but you never asked

almost is never enough
at last, after all those weeks of denial
i longed for you
completely
with so much hope and ecstasy carried on my shoulders
i-
naive and thoughtless
ready to be swept by your winds
i stepped foot in your storm
hoping that the wait would be worth it

almost is never enough
i search for you amidst all the rage set in place
in pure solitude you sit in the eye of the tempest.
infuriated. wretched.
when all at once comes a figure
someone i'd never seen before
pleasing to all who looked upon her
your eyes fixated on her
chaos
madness
fright
terror
and then
silence
almost is never enough

-c. alejandra