there is nothing better than silence where thoughts can be sorted categorized labeled discarded or dwelled upon
this (functional) anxiety takes a free ride over-burdening my back
the weight strains every muscle I stretch to compensate but my bones split and crack quietly anticipating true paralyzation like a patient waiting for a root canal
peer inside observe the chaos adequate distraction making sleep achievable the master of redirection my fumbling hands reach for one more drink
second guess everything
maybe it was better when nothing mattered nothing at all
show me the way back to that place where giving a **** was a lost art