It's always so painful to watch
And let someone go
I know if I could go back in time
I would tweak a thing or two
But there is no going back
I cannot reflect too much on the past
There is just moving forward.

I know we miss each other
I started to get very comfortable
Thinking we were of the same skin
I no longer needed to hunt or look
But I did start to crave a validation
Compliments
That you couldn't really seem to fully give me.

What's done is done
There is no going back now
Only moving forward
I worry for my mother
I cannot hold on
To anything energy sapping
I have so much to do
I have so much to throw myself into
And I did learn so much from you baby
I'll never forget that fact.

Airport coffee
People flash and whizz by
I don't like where I live
And even if I gave it a face lift
Perhaps I will
But it's all still so mine
I'm not gonna be okay for a while
But I welcome the discomfort
The not okayness
And I know most wouldn't be as strong
Most wouldn't hang on
But I'm not most.

Preparing for another weekend
Reinventing the wheel
That's what you use to say
I know I was such a force
A force to be reckoned with
I kick myself into high gear
But I also let myself wallow
I'm older and wiser now
There is no going back
No changing it
Only welcoming the pain
And moving through.