Set everything in motion set everything right. Move on knowing that you are the architect of your life even of your death but do not fall prey to dark thoughts of retribution, that way madness lies. That's how all went down? You thought you found true peace. How could that be when you still carry all those burdens from the past? Mystery, silence, doubt. That was your mix, not your world. You always equated facts with excuses, not feelings for it was something getting in your way and never understood that a fact is a not a way of seeing things but what you see. Why not retire from your standarts, just get out of your head even for a little bit?