I miss you so dearly. My mama says she feels empathy for you As though you are her And me my father But I saw the licks of Hell as your face Turned a deep red I tried to speak out The words invisible to your ears Mine aching from the chaos You inflicted because you felt You deserved it
I think of the beginning And how elated you were To have me by your side I had a very you and me Kind of dinner tonight And yesterday Beets at the center Except now it's just me.
The seat across from me--once again Empty. But we all know you couldn't have been here anyway And I guess that gives me some hand held peace You want You are drained. I drink champagne And chalk up our fate Knowing this chair stays empty For now And has revolved like the swivel of my front door Throughout my 26 years When will one at last stick? But I deeply know when. And for once-- I find and relish It's emptiness