i want to write.
i want to write more.
i want to talk.
i want to vent.
i want to say so many things.
i want to howl.
i want to cry.
i want to soak the warmth from the sky.
i am cold.
i am lost.
in the hope that you'll come. i walk.
i walk. i walk. i walk.
i stop. the shadow is still.
there is nothing beyond.
i stumble upon a void.
its a space all around.
unfamiliar and cold.
the hate i feel is painful
it suffocates me.
i can stop the tears.
i cannot heal the pain.
i cannot fill the gaps.
i am blinded by the darkness.
my faith slipped looking for you.
you grabbed it.
buried it somewhere.
now there's only so much left.

me in the stillness of the night.
as i wait. i wait. i wait.
you bring home more pain....