Sometimes
Or a lot of times
I'm done with everything
And I feel disgusting

Others make me feel less
Making me a hot mess
Destroying my own success
My own happiness
Creating stress

It's all in my head
That's what they said
Everything is making me mad
Emotional or crazy kind is what I get
It's both been said
Making me sad

Feeling neglected
Poorly reflected
A wall that keeps me protected
STOP TRYING TO FORGET IT

It all had a cost
Now I feel lost

What I once loved
I now dislike
I now don't care

I was enthusiastic
Now I feel spastic
Made from plastic
Unrealistic

Emotionless is how I live
Even though I still feel so much
All I've got I give
So tired of the such and such

I want to be myself again
Not live for appreciation from others
I have so much to learn and gain
Lesson one: letting go of that what bothers

Feeling neglected
Poorly reflected

People don't know me
I don't let it, I won't show them
So it's logical they can't see
Who I am
That I always feel guilty
Feeling ******, shammed

But who am I
If not what they say I am