“Make a wish”
I shut my eyes and think.
My breathing quickens
My heart-beat picks up
My mind dart’s all around
racing the clock to find the perfect wish before the clock strikes 11:12
What do I want?
What do I wish while I lay awake late at night
When I’m thinking of you
When I’m going over our conversations in my head
Repeating the words you spoke to me under my breath
Thoughts of moments together playing in my mind
All the feelings that envelop me when I’m with you begin to bubble up
20 seconds left to make a wish
The clock seems to be going at 100 miles per hour
The seconds slip fast
My mind races against time
I feel the absence of your presence
I hear the silence
The absence of your breathing
The thought gives me goosebumps, and it runs all along my body.
Everything we’ve gone through
Everything we are
And everything we will be
You and me
5 seconds on the clock
My mind spirals then stops
My mind rests on one thing
Suddenly it’s so obvious
Him.
I let the words escape my lips where they have been imprisoned
Trying to escape at any chance they had
At any chance I’d given them
But never speaking the words out loud
“I wish for him to be mine”
Tick-Tock
The clock chimes.
The words are out in the open and they cannot be taken back.