If I could rewind time-
I would go back and fix my life.
I'd make good choices.
I'd make sure they were wise.
I'd go back to the beginning.
I'd go back to the start.
I'd go back and find a way to keep my life from falling apart.
I'd block certain people out.
And let others in.
I'd erase all thoughts of wanting my life to end.
If I could fastforward time-
I'd find out what will become of my life.
I'd find out all the mistakes I would make.
I'd find out all the risks I would take.
I'd find out all the stupid **** I would do.
I'd find out if I would ever have to courage to tell you *******.
I'd find out a was to avoid all the problems I would have to face.
I'd find out what I would have to deal with day after day.
But for now I have to live in the present-
I have to deal with all the constant surprise.
I have to deal with all the lies.
I have to deal with all the crap.
I have to realize that I may never get my life back.
I have to carry on day after day.
Even though all I want to do is run away.