Once you've had everything
and lost it all
The difficulty is always in not remembering
in trying to actively forget
It seems such a simple thing before
but when you try, its like hell
Even when things change and move on
you're lost, sometimes dragged
into little whirls of memories
and what could be, or was
Even when you try to pick the pieces up,
glue it all back together
Its not the same
That little piece is always missing or out of place
The cracks will always show
Your vase cant hold water anymore once its been broke
Then it happens
One day, it becomes harder to remember than to forget
The next its easy again but after that;
it keeps happening
Like part of you is gone
You cant feel it the same way anymore
as much as you want to,
as hard as you try-
the feelings
the memories
the happiness you felt
Its all gone and eroded
Faded into time as if it never happened in the first place
As if it never held such importance in the first place
As if you didn't at some point feel you would die at the pain of what you've lost
And its almost worse
Cause you believe its gone for good
That little feeling is never coming back from either side
And all you have is not even the memory of something faded
You come to think of it
and its all gone.
Just like how,
i come to think of you,    
and;

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