I don't know what is more painful than;

Seeing your sweet killer smile,
Listening to your cute intoxicating giggling,
Fading away, just like that.

I don't know what is more tormenting than;

Watching your pretty quiet eyes,
Hearing to your tantalising hopeful words about us,
Disappearing through the thin air, just like that.

It's such an act of masochism, addicting to the pain one inflicted to oneself.

But darling, it is you that I am addicted to.
The drug that kills me slowly but surely.