I miss you..

2:48am and I'm alone in bed
Never thought I'd lose you..
If I could spend another day with you
In exchange for everything right now, I would..

You are constantly on my mind
You showed me love like no other
You made me feel happy for the first time in my entire life

You were the branches the kept me together
The flowers that gave beauty to my life
The cigarette that relieved me from stress
The pill that made me forget about how cruel the universe really is

Hai Babe..
It's been awhile now..
I have so much stories to tell you
It felt like suits during your burial day where I felt the need to tell them..
It was Greys Anatomy when we were at the ER
It was a walk to remember.. when..
Well..

Your birthday how could I forget
When I almost tried to **** my self the day before..
When I wanted nothing moren than to be with you again..
My life was a total wreck before I met you.. you were genuine when the world was full of hypocrisy
You were the one flower surrounded by dead leaves
You were the song I'd hear when no one bothered to listen

Hai Babe..
meet Jai..

People see her as your look alike
But to me she isn't
People see her as chaotic and broken
But to me she isn't
People see her as another you
But to me she isn't

I would never want another you
But I did fall inlove the same way too

She was the light when all I saw was dark
She was the gem when everyone else saw her as dirt
She was the rainbow when everyone else was color blind to see..
I hope you like her Babe.. she treats me right.. she's not you.. she's different

The most unique one I've met so far...
And I'm inlove with her too now..
I hope she's the one you lead me too..
I hope she never hurts me..
I hope she never leaves me..
I hope she lives for me..

I'm sorry Bianca..
I let you down..
I won't make the same mistake with her I promise..
I won't let her go..
She means the world to me now..
I don't wanna lose my faith in her..
I'm so broken..
I'm so lost..

I love you for eternity..
I love her for eternity..
I'm ****** up..
I'm messed up..

I don't deserve to live..