I want to live on my own, by my own person
I am ready to begin my life without the pain
I am fighting to keep my head above water
I am trying to delete you from my life
Throw out the pictures and drawings and poetry
But I can’t throw out the mental pictures
The emotional memories
The verbal poetry that reverberates in my ears

I can delete you from my computer
I can throw away the pictures and poems and paintings
But when I close my eyes, you’re there
When I go to sleep you’re still there
When I walk around my cold lonely apartment, you’re there
You are still all around me and I don’t know what to do with it
I don’t know how to let it go, even though I have tried

I have tried seeing other people
I have tried dating other people
But no one feels right
It doesn’t feel right
They are not my best friend, there is no connection
They are not right, nothing in my life right now is right