The constant fight between my heart and my mind
I just want to have control this time
It can't be mine
Everything is spinning too fast to keep going
I don't think I've ever felt this lonely
I have no clue where the hell i'm going
Can't tell which way is up from down
I cry at night but I try not to make a sound
I can't hold it in and I just want to shout
The nightmares come back every night
Constantly, it's the same old sight
I can't escape the madness he put inside my mind
Not this time
I want it to be over but I cannot find
The peace I need to clear my mind
The guilt of sitting and just watching him die
I did nothing I just went back inside
My best friend woke up without her dad
I held her and cried, but I was kind of glad
I know that sounds bad
But he took something I can never get back
My innocence, my childhood, my peace of mind
Still searching for something that I cannot find
Two years he had his way with me
I don't know how nobody could see
I was choking and I could not breathe
Nobody saw me constantly gasping for air
I should have reached out but I was so so scared
Now I'm living in my own nightmare