I always thought I was in love.
Whenever I see someone and get interested in them;
Whenever my heart beats fast in their presence.
The usual cliché love thing.
I thought love was supposed to be like that.

But, they just say that I'm just curious and wondering how it's like; how being in love feels like.

They say that I don't get to be in love in my age.
That I'm too young to be in love.
They say that I just need to wait.
That I'm just in love with the idea of love.

Okay.

Maybe I am in love with the thought of holding your hand as if letting go would make me feel lost in a labyrinth.
And I might be in love with the thought of wrapping my arms around your neck, and your arms around my waist.

I'm in love with the thought of dancing with you to my favorite song, until our hearts are content.

I'm in love with the thought of feeling wanted, and not feel like I shouldn't even be here.

I'm in love with the thought to finally have someone with me every night, keeping from having nightmares in my sleep.

I'm in love with the thought of finally relating to those love songs that speak promises in my ears.

I'm in love with the thought of all of those things.

But I am deep in love with the thought of being in love with you; the right one, God's best, the one He reserved for me. And for you to love me back. For me to finally be loved back.

And maybe you'll show me what being in love really feels like.
That it's more than what I thought it was.

-F.T. 03/14/17