What it feels like to disappear:
To know her
But to see her with him
To altogether recreate all galaxies
Because one with out her in it
Does not deserve to be in this universe.
To look at her with tears threatening to spill out of your eyes
And a knot in the back of your throat
And tell her you love her
And her not once, look up from her phone/She’s texting him
To **** a nice guy because you want to forget her
To not understand what he means when he says he loves you.
When you’re ******* him you remind yourself of his name
Or you might slip and say hers.
To not believe that your life is reality.
To not believe you actually exist
Until you look at yourself in the mirror
Staring into your own eyes,
Yet still not feeling convinced.
To cut into the top half of both of your legs
To try and convince yourself
That there is something "living" inside of you.