My insides
Are shaking
Doomsday
Freedom day
Fools day
Is approaching
I have to jump
I have to leap
Insanity
Obesity
Depression
Is nipping at my toes
Half of me
Says this is wrong
Wait, wait
Time is not right
Not correct
But
I must believe
I must strengthen
I make time
I create opportunity
Even though
I know
My world
Is folded
My timeline
Twisted and turned
Tweaked
Into obtuse, acute, and right
Triangles
I try to
Move them
Around
Shape them around
Blow them out
Feel them up
And see
If
I can get
A little more space
A little more freedom
Play the game
Ignore the game
Wink hard
Skip long
Try to focus
Focus
And not get board
But
Hold my feelings
Keep them cool
Like ice cubes
But not
Too cool
Not too
Distant
Listen
To those
I know
Who came before
Walked so crooked
Trying to make it straight
Perfect
Everything is perfect
Everything is fine
Not looking behind
Never behind
Feel my breath
Going to fast
Feel my heart beating
To fast
Quick
Happy thought
Happy thought
The ogre has no effect
No thought
No moment
In my heart
My body
It is gone
Wiped clean
With the pain
Hold on
To my imaginary dream
So twisted
Into the pain
Try to separate
Compartmentalize
Ignore
The entanglement
Just to survive
Live one more day
Ignore
The jokes
Mental pain
Rise above
Survive above
Do not die
Do not go down
Not like that
Never like that
All the confusion
Obsession
Of who I am
What I am
I don’t know
I don’t understand
The fascination
With my destruction
My frustration
With the manipulation of my life
The unknown
Target
Of my life
Such an easy
Simple
Target
Of my life
I’ve always known
Who I am
A simple, strong, dark, bright,
Woman