did you ever want to shake out the skies to watch the stars fall, catch one and fix it on a ring with kudzu did you ever think that fear is just a gate without locks, driven into the yard with father's strong arms-- so I dream about the day the man died on highway 50, the road up to salida away from Kansas City saying thank you to the cadence of mississippi ******* star-watching till the early cold 1 am
i've been a little too ******* my soul a vice on a child that don't know where else to go and she ain't even physical, just an analogy for heart but I whisper that, we can't keep holdin' on that way, like there's no where else to hold, cause that bridge has fingerprints set in stone the places where god tried to take me home and i dug in between the bricks to go no further.
but there's no difference in where I am, runnin' up the sides of mosaic canyons settin' fire to the brush, with matchstick palms walking the line to hell on white hot sand, widowbird feathers streamin' in my hair drilling post holes with heels that can't stay above ground on the backslide with promises hanging off my lips gold drillbit tassels swinging against my hips and he's close there behind me waiting for the right misstep 'cause god don't catch but is one for reachin' and i'm tired of tellin' him i'm ****** about his mercy the way things are, the way i am, the things I can't change without his help anymore, the loneliness at local bars when i'm sittin' by myself up in the stands watchin' bulls as honest as the colorado weather throwin weak men off their backs looking for the real challenge prolly the way he seeks me out to wear me down till all i can do is stop and look back away from the gates kick off the mud stop buckin', tossin' sleepin' on the watch.
(c) Brooke Otto 2017
keep thinking about where I want to take this but I think it's done.