Masochism
See i need you to mistreat me.
I expect you to defeat me
But you wouldn't
and I am confused.
See i like you but I am used to being used.
from a young age I was turned on to abuse
My mother said I liked it when she beat my ***
and I dont know how much of that is true
But i want mistreatment from you.
Or at least I think I do.

Sadism

I have suffered in this life to much
not to learn how to
enjoy it.

I want you to tell me i'm to much.
Try to destroy it.

Something about being broken,
and being breaking
and crying and ******

Something about all my history
all the things done to me,
I want them undone by you
By you doing them to me too.

I know you think I'm sick when I whisper

Hurt me.

But there is something inside me
hiding
and it needs you to hurt me.
It needs you to be the one
and we can pretend
that we are both having fun.

But me Im just reliving
****** up **** from my past.
and I pretend its some fetish some,
desire so strange twisted feat...
Some easy thing i keep discreet
but honestly its devouring me.