I saw myself in her, I thought I knew her, but then her actions were confusing, until I realized she was me, but at barely thirty, that's how I would have been. more sure and distracted by expectations and planning, everything I now long to shed back then I longed to build. possessions and collections became the anchors, but then the chains. they keep me from leaving, ... that keep me from living. in a moment free of a past not tied to a future, in a second that turns to weeks, that prolonged timeless moment. for the non-evasive so elusive. she's still the closest thing to me but in her supposed prime, drifting constantly, with a different sense of time, so her actions keep confusing me, me, not who I used to be.