Arrogance, high-pitched laughter, hiding behind some old fashioned movie smile knowing you're a fraud yet pausing and waiting for people to applaud.
Manipulatively working your pawns for comfort, for egoistic measures, abusively, but too easy to stop. You're an actor, live performer, liar and a former sizzling fire.
It's tempting and intriguing, it's deceit, how you mistreat your minions, unethical and wrong and you are aware your mind's wellfare is based on other's opinions.
It's pathetic, really. Watch out for unhealthy progressions