I don't understand Why in the misted fleet Of crickets whistling, humming I'm petting the back of the white bird As it crawls underneath my skin A specimen to behold Clad in red and black I stretch my arms out wide Fostering and seeking to nourish What is here and what is not Fighting tooth and nail To constantly approach every interaction With a 360 degree point of view Why it seems to be so difficult for you To see that I love your loyalty, your faith But I need to be coddled and reassured at times Because its just like What feels like mere seconds ago Where a hole was left next to my head Or I was left alone in the middle of the night Or told in the heat of my sequined dress Crying all the way "I ****** up."
I want to be an all around fantastical, amazing Justice filled woman I'm fighting to reach her You hugged me in the most vulnerable of places But yet I still seem to find myself Lost in that rabbit hole Of what I consider a triggering place And with my detailed or large brush strokes I try to paint all the ways To make you see, I just need a little healing A little extra lovin' Even when your words Come from grown experience But I'm still your baby I'm still fostering and nourishing With you Help me, help you.
Independence Its a trait I know and hum into so well Wanna make you happy Wanna make me happy Together or separate I know you got that good coo coo I know you got that strong lullaby But help me, help you.
Don't wanna nag Or slip into dreams That remind me Of my face cracked in half I seldom share The vivid dreams I have at night With you For fear of being misunderstood Because they are rarely Positive or good.
Can't you see I'm an immeasurable Complicated and compassionate woman? It makes my heart swell When you do the little, big Thoughtful acts I know baby, you mean so well Wanna give you all that freedom So that we fly around And back to one another Always.