It makes absolutely no sense to people that see me, that I am at ease with obsessing over nature. They don't get it, nobody does! We are born into a world where we are forced to survive when there's absolutely nothing worth living for. Is it just me who thinks life should be for those that want to live it? Those that have lives that matter in this world? People like us aren't meant to exist. We depress people with our lives, our mere existence could possibly be a waste of time. I don't care that they think I can be saved. 18 years of feeling like complete **** can't be erased now, it's a part of me now, a part I can't just let them take away. Depression seems to be the only constant thing in my life. I've had too many labels put on me, you better not dare try to remove any of them. They're a part of me already. Staying strong is for the strong, I was born weak. There's not much to live for don't you think. I didn't sign up to watch other people happy, I'm not going to sit around and wallow in my misery. If I'm not meant to be happy then good just ******* remove me from this world of happiness and put me with my people.