You have abandoned purity for perfection. Even the blind have moments of clarity but you ***** around like the Cyclops feeling nowhere for noman while affecting a quiet, moronic expression. You can't knit without needles, but you have mislaid the point and so things unravel into random skeins. Your typewriter rattles only in reverse. Bards stub their toes and wail. You hear them, but pay no attention. You are listening for the atomic thunderclap. Nothing less than finale of final will do. When it explodes at last you will know the inarticulate, unspeakable name of god. Perhaps Fred. Perhaps Norma or Justine. Perhaps merely a very loud Boom... That will be more than enough for one life.