I can't lose you.
I can already feel the aching in my bones,
in my skin, my deadened joints.
I couldn't take it if I lost you.
[Let me fall asleep] where I cannot see sunlight,
I could not bear to see the sunlight,
without your hand in mine.
I already feel the absence of your
                                            touch.
Your whisper
                            [in my ear]
and your breath on my neck,
deceased.

And I can feel what life would be like without you.

the endless night of anguish.
the days of too many hours.
the fog progressing in.

It'll never stop raining.

And the pain my eyes would bear,
having seen all that they have seen
[and seeing you in everything]

Oh,
the thought of if i lost you.
and a sea of blankets cover me,
with agony,
numbness
sweeping
over
me.
If I lose you,

I lose everything.