I will never be THAT

THAT which you admire
THAT which you hide
THAT which you idolize

I will never be THAT

THAT shade of skin
THAT perfect smile
THAT endless gain

I will always be THIS

THIS which desires no more
THIS which desires no less
THIS which I love wholly

I will always be THIS

THIS pale frail girl
THIS stringy blonde hair
THIS THIS THIS

I will always be THIS
And I will never be **THAT