I will never forget the way it feels to rest my head on your shoulder. Or what it feels like to rub my hands through your beard. I wish I would have kissed you goodnight harder. I wish I would have stayed up all night kissing your face and wrapping our bodies together. At the end of the day it's all about how empty I feel when you're not beside me.  Small things mean the most which is why I always tell the story of that one time you just grabbed my face and kissed me. Or the countless times you'd say, "shmile shmalls" until I finally did. I don't know if I'll ever find someone as special as you, but if I do, I hope he chooses to stay. With you, I got so very lucky. Having you as my best friend and my love. Only bad part is- now you're gone. And it's just me