I have taken
too many shots today.

one.

two.

three.


four.




five.

And I was gone.

Cheap **** on my mind,
drunk as ****
at six at night.

I stay drunk.

And I hate myself,
so that's why
I stay drunk.

Where is the little marshall?

Where is that kid
full of romanticism,
and hope,
because my mom's
had me watching
the way we were
and
dance with me.

I tell girls the truth,
and I guess so many times
they've
heard
it
as the opposite.

But my heart is full of that ****,
full of taking in love
and on the assembly line
of my
arteries
trying to hold them,
protect women,
keep them from guessing,
becuase all along,
my romanticism
wasn't *******.

It was a process
of my mother trying to make me into a man
that wasn't him,
wasn't my father.

So yea,
my ****
may sound played and irregular
but me
caring for you
is nothing
but
regular.

I can't lie to a girl,
I can't fib
on my heart.

Because romanticism
has been there
from the
start.

My mother is to blame
for
my shotty game.

Game
is when you're trying to ****,
and
I can't knuck
with that.

I tell girls how I feel,
truthfully,
even if it sounds dupey.

This poem has turned into another love poem.